Saturday, March 13, 2010
Checking in
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
Post-Journey
Where it took me was not only to this place of dramatic and lovely language, but also an exploration of balance. As the light shifted to shadow, so the he needed a she. As his adoration of her blossomed so did her detestation of him. As the fear typically brings fear, so did that fear transcend into dancing. And so on and so forth. I’m not entirely sure if it worked all the way through, but it was actually a really fun exercise to just let the words come and see where they took me.
What did you think?
Monday, March 1, 2010
Journey
Friday, February 26, 2010
Sorry, sorry, sorry...
Monday, February 22, 2010
Playing and Editing
I had two points of inspiration for last week’s story: 1) self help books and 2) wanting to play with emotion and character interaction a bit. I’m fairly sure I paid tribute to both of those points, but I’m not at all sure I did it well. Which is fine, not every single story is going to be good. But it was pretty fun to write (except for the migraine I had while writing it) and I liked and could relate to the characters.
Saturday, February 20, 2010
Once Upon a Time, In a Bookstore...
The wind all but blew Tabitha into the small bookstore. Flyers in a rainbow of colors fluttered wildly in protest as the wind tore against their thumb tack bonds on the corkboard by the door. Leaves scurried into the store as she quickly shut the door behind her. She turned around slowly trying to remove the long strands of hair that had found their way into her mouth and eyes and resituate her scarf. Smiling in apology to the assorted customers that looked at her now, Tabitha tried to get her bearings.
Weaving her way through the huge wooden bookshelves she caught sight of a worn arm chair tucked into a nook towards the back of the store. Sitting down heavily, grateful for its refuge, she rested her hands on the thick arms trailing her fingers softly over the balding green corduroy
Tabitha opened her eyes slowly, pulling focus on the titles surrounding her. Taking a deep breath, she pulled the first one from the shelf that caught her eye: “If You’re Sad and You Know It, Clap Your Hands.”
“Back again, eh Tabby?” The voice had come out of nowhere, but it was familiar enough by this point that it didn’t make her jump.
“Yeah, so? “ She tried desperately to make her voice sound belligerent, but couldn’t help punctuating with a smile.
Tabitha looked up and locked eyes with a man who looked like he belonged on an Ivy League college campus somewhere. He gave the impression of being a solid block of brown. Tousled brown curls faded down into his brown cardigan which melded into his brown tweed pants. It was only his eyes and his shoes that gave him away. Bookending his appearance with bright blue and orange.
She hated that she had to be in this section and he had come to know this fact well.
“Come to make fun of me again Bryce?” Again, she couldn’t quite keep the smile out of her voice.
He chuckled, “Me? I’m entirely too nice a guy to make fun of you Tabby, you know that. But you’ve not started clapping yet, so perhaps you’re looking for a different book? How about this one?” Without really looking he grabbed another book off the shelf and handed it to her.
"When Depression is Your Friend: How To Bilk Sympathy From Friends, Family, and Co-Workers” Her eyes narrowed as she read the title. “Oh, so now you’re trying to insinuate something instead of just being obnoxious?”
“Ah, you give me far too much credit Tab. I’m just here to help you wade through the next section of books. Maybe one of these weeks, you’ll actually find what you’re looking for.”
This time she had no trouble keeping the laughter out of her voice as she lowered her eyes to shield herself from his vision. “That’s just wishful thinking at this point Bryce,” she muttered.
He pulled the book from her hand and let it drop softly on the fluffy armchair, simultaneously reaching for another. This one he read aloud, “’From Delinquent to Diva: How to get your Bling on a Budget!’” He managed to deliver this title with such seriousness that she could not help but laugh out loud.
She collected herself again and paused to look at him. Tabitha found that he was looking back at her with such compassion in his eyes that she was momentarily stunned. How could she keep doing this every week? Coming back to this same bookstore, looking for some semblance of sanity. Looking for anything to latch on to, something to give her a way to make it through the oversaturation of her life. Where do you start when all you’re looking for is the perfect sentence to make it all make sense? Because until recently when ever morning held a tidal wave of sensory overload, it had all been manageable. Sure she was snarky and bitchy and wielded her words like a whip, but it was manageable. And she found that mostly, people loved her for her quirks rather than not.
For the last several months, every Saturday, she had been at this bookstore. Looking for the perfect words, the perfect way to organize those words and the perfect intonation to them to say to herself over and over again so that all doubt would be stamped out of existence. So she could be left with the confidence and purpose she had known for so much of her life.
Bryce had emerged from the shadows one afternoon, his blue eyes playful and his orange shoes the very tip of his idiosyncrasy iceberg. He had handed her a book, this one carefully chosen, which she took with some reticence, but still with a glimmer of hope. She had ended up on the floor from laughing so hard after that one: “If Life’s a Bowl of Cherries, You’re Not Drinking Enough Manhattans.”
And every Saturday since then he had found her, in this bookstore, in this section, in this chair. So far he had helped her get through most of the self help section of the bookstore. She had begun to wonder what was going to happen when they ran out of books. Maybe they could move on to the travel section in the next row. But then she’d have to leave her chair. Maybe she’d just start over.
Just as Tabitha had settled herself back into the chair, swinging her legs over one broad arm, Bryce arrived with a whole armful of books and plopped them in her lap with a smug look of self satisfaction on his face.
“Wha-?”
“Well, I’m tired of this hunting and pecking routine you’ve got going. So I thought I’d introduce a little efficiency to the process by bringing you several at once.” He looked so proud of himself that she grimaced in response.
“No? Hmmmm…”
He grabbed a handful of books for himself and sat down on the floor in front of the chair and started going through each one, reading it aloud and then tossing it over his shoulder:
“If You're Waiting For Your Prince To Come, All You'll Get are Frogs"
“Go from Doormat to Dreamgirl in Five Easy Steps!”
“Turn Dump City into Trump City!”
“Get a Life, Not a Job!”
“I Moved Your Cheese Because You’re Too Fat”
“Learn How to Change the Locks: When Loving the One You’re With Just Isn’t Enough”
“Are you Sure It’s Not Time To Think About Settling?”
“Fairytales Do End: It’s Called Adultery”
She started to protest but she was caught so completely by the books titles that she just sat there getting buried deeper by the books he was so nonchalantly throwing over his shoulder directly into her lap. He finished his pile of books and turned to look back at her with a huge smile on his face. It took her a moment to realize that she was sobbing. Tears oozing down her cheeks as if they were being squeezed out of a toothpaste tube. His smile vanished.
“Oh, Tabby, I’m so sorry! I was just trying to keep you laughing. To show you how silly these books are. I didn’t mean to upset you.” He was facing her now, kneeling at eye level with her, his face so apologetic and earnest that she had a hard time looking away from him. In a split second she just decided she didn’t care anymore. In one brief moment she released the strangle hold she had on her life, her emotions and just let it all go. Her sobbing increased as she fell to the side awkwardly, trusting that he would catch her before she toppled, books and all, onto her face onto the floor. He did and she leaned heavily into him.
She let it all gush out of her. As if her tear ducts were some central line to her own private reservoir of feeling. She had committed fully to just letting it all come now. Letting herself cry for as long as she needed it. But then, out of nowhere, she found herself laughing. He tensed underneath her, thinking perhaps that she was renewing her overflow of sadness. Suddenly though, those tears of pain and loss and fear were converted to tears of laughter, joy and discovery. She took one deep breath and let out the loudest laugh she’d ever heard or uttered. Pulling back from his arms to meet his confused eyes, she continued to giggle.
“Are you ok?” he asked cautiously.
“I’m hungry”
His face melted into a smile at this response as he cupped her cheek for a moment. Bryce stood up slowly to give Tabitha a chance to regain her own balance and then gently pulled her from underneath the hill of books under which she was buried.
She laced her fingers into his as she met his eyes.
“I like your shoes.”
They both grinned and made their way back out into the wind.
Thursday, February 18, 2010
Delays, Delays, Delays
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Working it Out
So I had a couple of methods to my madness last week. The first of which is that I wanted to play with microfiction a bit (stories with a 500 or less word count) and I wanted to see if I could make the reader feel what the character was feeling within the constriction of that word count. I wanted to see if I could take a totally benign road trip and turn into the terrifying snapshot it became when she realized that it was she and her daughter against the mountain. I don’t know if I succeeded or not, but it was sort of fun to do.
Thursday, February 11, 2010
White Out
By the time I noticed the first snowflakes brushing the windshield we were more than halfway to our destination. Giving the sky a cursory glance, I cranked up the music and pushed my SUV a little faster knowing how quickly the weather could turn in this area.
“My love you too mama.”
Thursday, February 4, 2010
Every Day is A New Day
Monday
The sun gleamed brightly through the door as she slid across the threshold, the door slamming shut behind her abruptly cutting off the light. She immediately missed the heat on her face, but resigned herself to another day at work.
She awoke slowly, stretching a little bit at a time. Each time hoping that her fingertips would find their way to the sun that usually splashed across her bed by early morning. But she knew she wouldn’t find its warmth today. The sun had disappeared yesterday behind an enormous bank of clouds that had gotten progressively angrier as the day had gone on. She knew today would find the outside draped in a cold fog of indeterminate grey.
“Yes, I’m Nancy, here from the Temp Agency assigned to Data Entry today.”
“O-of course Eva.”
Sunday, January 31, 2010
Struggle and Expansion
I struggled with last week’s story for days. I went through at least four different drafts before I got it heading in a direction I thought might work.
So, if you have recommendations for me for books to read, bring them on!!
Thursday, January 28, 2010
Unconscious Blindness
“There is no coming to consciousness without pain.” – Carl Jung
Why the hell can’t I open my eyes?!
Saturday, January 23, 2010
Topographically Speaking
I’m here! Whew, been snowed in for the past few days in New Mexico, but I’m here.
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
A Pig Gets His Day
Sebastian sat on the floor of the bank vault shoving coins and dollars into his mouth as efficiently as possible. He focused on one point on the opposite wall and tried to keep his breathing even and constant. Every time he felt the chill of another quarter sliding down his gullet, his cold, green eyes tightened slightly, waiting for the one coin that was going to cause him problems. Or top him off. Although that was ridiculous. He knew that what he had done had no limit. He could swallow the whole world and still walk around as the tall, bean pole of a man he had always been. He knew there was no technical limit to his ability to cart everything with him, but he wondered if there was a limit to how much he could carry. He knew the difference was slim, but it was still a difference.
“Fine thanks, although I’d love a glass of water.”
“Yeah, we’ll see what we can do about that.” The detective snickered slightly as he hooked one thumb into his belt. Sebastian noticed that the cop’s belt buckle was an aberration to the rest of his staid and dress code friendly attire. The man’s belt buckle was a large, bronze pig. No other adornment or decoration, just a fully grown, well fed, highly polished pig.
“Ah, see, I told them you weren’t stupid Sebastian. Thank you so much for not making a liar out of me. “
Friday, January 15, 2010
The Ideal Reader
I’m reading Stephen King’s On Writing right now and he has been spending a great deal of time talking about the Ideal Reader. Or rather, writing for your own personal Ideal Reader. It’s an intriguing concept for me because I’m not sure what my Ideal Reader looks like. I don’t really have any clue as to who they are or what they’re looking for in a story. Perhaps because I’ve never written fiction before? Whatever the cause, I wish I did have an Ideal Reader because maybe they would have saved you all from the drivel I wrote last week.
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
The Beat's End
Joe surveyed his beat as he cinched up the scarf that his wife had made him around his neck. He smiled briefly, warmed by the idea that the very thought of her could still make him smile after all these years. The warmth faded quickly in the face of the incessant tone and tenor of his daily routine however. He had been informed that his position as head of campus security was soon going to be eliminated in an effort to trim the university’s budget.
Saturday, January 9, 2010
Debrief
And here we go into week 2. Writing my first story was not nearly as hard or harsh as I expected it to be. I think there was some nice language in the first story, some decent character development and my writing was not nearly as self conscious as I thought it might be. All in all, I’m pretty happy with how it turned out.
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
Secret Santa
As he was buttoning up his shirt he couldn’t keep his eyes from straying to the bushy white beard arranged meticulously on the foam head on the dresser. From there it was an easy jump to the array of hats hung just within arm’s reach on the otherwise empty wall. And by then he had turned completely around to face the half open closet. One French door stood wide open revealing the everyday clothes of this businessman who had long ago outgrown the requirement to wear ties to the office. But peeking out one of the slats of the closed door came the sheen from where the pearl button caught hold of the light from the bright overhead lamp. He sighed and smiled briefly before turning back to the mirror to make sure he hadn’t missed any buttons on his plaid shirt.
“Oh, it’s ok. I’m used to it.”
“No. I just…I just wanted you to have this.”
“Just please. Please take it. Please. You deserve it. And I don’t need it.”
Friday, January 1, 2010
Welcome!
Happy New Year and welcome! I thought I’d have my first post on this blog be a “here’s how it’s all going to work/intro” post to get us all accustomed to the new digs. And because I’m inviting just about everyone I know to come and take a look over here, I thought it would be good to have at a least a little something for you all to look at.